2) This just means this summer I'm supposed to be doing something else. Like interning at the CBPP. Their internships are paid and, praise the Lord, the deadline hasn't yet passed. It pays half of what my current job does, but I am going to keep my expenses low and just do it. The experience makes up for the paycheck, as would my decreased travel time.

I know why this happened. My undergrad transcript was less than stellar. But that's okay, this is my journey, and I'm not going to fight what the Lord has in store for me. Only He knows, and I have faith that those plans are Good.

I am flowing with life. I am not fighting. I am flowing.

So I will continue to work hard. This school year is a new beginning in my academic and work career. When I apply for the federal government again, in the fall, I will receive that grander fellowship because 1) I desire to be financially secure, 2) I desire to be in a position of influence and power, 3) my 4.0 looks good, and 4) I earned this. I deserve this.

This is a good thing, that I continue to work in the nonprofit world until I enter the feds. In the nonprofit world I will have more freedom and exchange more ideas... there's more flexibility. I want to enjoy the energy while I still can!

I love life. I love love. I love God. Every day is beautiful and I am thankful to be here.